“The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.” ― Coco Chanel

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Vulnerability is something that has never come easy to me. Finding the balance between looking weak or strong, desperate or self-reliant, crazy or collected is an unfavorable battle in my mind when debating to be vulnerable.

Because vulnerability is not second nature to me I continually have to be conscious of showing up in moments and allowing myself to feel fully and express candidly. In moments of what feels like vulnerability I find myself questioning if I am offering my genuine-self or if I am still trying to protect my ego, my sensitivity. When did I start censoring and stop sharing?  Even with all my efforts to be vulnerable it doesn't always feel courageous or freeing, sometimes it feels more like shambles of defeat or second-guessing, did I share too much or did I not share enough? It usually being the latter.

I am still working to find my confidence with being vulnerable in hopes to connect with others, connect with myself, and gain a new perspective. It's rarely perfect or works out the way I think it should but sometimes you just have to start somewhere in hopes of acknowledging your inner voice.




   






Friday, August 4, 2017

"Stop being so afraid! That’s really what strikes me when I look back — the sheer amount of time I spent tangled up in fears and doubts that were entirely of my own creation… Focus more on learning than on succeeding — instead of pretending that you understand something when you don’t, just raise your hand and ask a question. You’re a smart girl, and chances are if you’re confused, plenty of other students are too. And for heaven’s sake, let yourself really fail once in a while — not some tiny little mistakes here and there, but big, glaring, confidence-shaking, dark-night-of-the-soul-inducing failures. Understand that no one — especially folks who are truly successful — simply coasts from achievement to achievement. The most accomplished people in the world fail and fail big. That’s how they learn so much and grow so quickly and become so interesting and wise. In short, stop trying to be someone who will impress everyone else, and just focus on being and becoming fully, sincerely and passionately yourself.” — Michelle Obama

Thursday, June 29, 2017


My Favorite House Corner 

"Follow your heart till it tears you apart" - John Mayer

Thursday, June 15, 2017

When I was younger you could often find me trailing close behind my sister, mimicking her every footstep. I always wanted to be close that one time I even followed her right into a bees nest. We were stung, a lot, and if my memory serves me right I wasn't even mad at the outcome of her leading. I was just happy to be going through it with her. 
Sometimes we will suffer, get stung just to be close to the ones we love. But how many times can a heart be stung and still beat?  Every outreach, each connection a distinct reminder. You tell yourself that you're strong, that maybe this time it won't sting. And maybe one day it won't. But today it still stings and I'm not overly upset about it if that means we are friends. 

Friday, May 12, 2017




“Human nature is like water. It takes the shape of its container.” ― Wallace Stevens

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Recently I feel like I have been attempting to cup water.
Attempting to capture this current in the palms of my hands, to make it still and aplenty.
No matter how hard I try to hold it, it always seems to find the cracks in my hands.
No control, no way to stop the water from shifting, or circulating.
The words ring throughout my head, "you can't hold something that doesn't want to be held."
So I spread my fingers wide letting the water pour over coating my long pointy fingers.
Free to flow.
I fight the urge to close my hands.
I hate that feeling, fighting a desire that beats so strong within me.
Wanting to experience a sense of closeness but well-knowing I may need to wash clean.


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Wednesday, February 8, 2017


“Don’t take my advice, that’s the advice I would give you. Because the important thing is that you listen to the wisdom that’s inside yourself. Do what you love. Do what makes you forget what time it is when you’re doing it because you love it so much. Find your unique talents. And find the people who make you feel smart and make you feel good and hang out with them, because we all need that kind of support.” — Gloria Steinem

"And the seasons will change us new" -Blind Pilot

Sunday, January 22, 2017


A peacemaker.
Some would say
people pleaser
a softy
push-over
lacking a back bone
weak
all of which feel a tidbit hurtful.
My attempts to bridge gaps quickly turns to b-grade patchwork.
Powerful pulls towards peace.
Strong aversions to confrontation.
Others try to protect, persuade and advise me
but deep down
I am a peacemaker.
Resilient roots.
Soft heart.
A persistence for commonalities
because you matter to me.


I'm bitter like whiskey your sweet like wine- tow'rs

Friday, January 6, 2017

The snow is settling into every curve and crack outside as I watch it fall from these warm coffee shop windows. My eyes strain as I attempt to focus on the white landscape that is slowly smudging any sharp definition there once was. I am cold to the bone, but feel a warmth welling up inside as I watch the snowflakes take their place among the scenery. The sun is shinning bright but shadowed with negative Fahrenheit digits. Can you really feel discomfort amidst contentment? How can a body experience such contradicting things at the same time and make sense of it?


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